Poem - What happened to me?

What happened here?
Where did I go.
Sick of these tears.
Lost and away from home.

Give me the knife.
Its time to end my life.
I know you dont care.
So let my guilt be what I share.

You have no idea how I feel.
This depression building up, like going up hill.
I am so tired and I just want to sleep forever.
You were just so darn clever.

You knew what to say and You played with my heart.
But that is fine, now I am the one being smart.
What happened to my laugh I use to hear so much.
Cant even finish a small meal of lunch.

What happened to me that this is what you do?
Well, just know that my life is through.

Poem - I feel undead

Living yet lifeless.

My mind is a melting pot of ideas, and yet I have none.

I'm not happy, but I'm not sad.

I'm bored, but don't want to do anything.

I'm lonely, but I don't like to be around people.

I haven't died...but I don't have a life