Right now I believe as it's the ninth day into National Writers Month (nanowrito). I have start this year and hoping to complete it and maybe getting my first novel finished and published if I can. The story I'm writing is Healing the Wounds, you can check o what the story is about on the Blurbs link on the sidebar. I believe this year I will complete a novel and getting it out there for people to read is my next chore of the year. Things are going to get better and I know it.
My partner is hoping to get a full-time job and I'm hoping to finish a novel and that are our goals for 2010. If you love writing, whatever you write, do it. Live the dream. My dream is coming up. I want to be an American. But I'm not. I'm British and I live in Indianapolis, Indiana. I love it here. We have two cats, which are cool and naughty at times of the day. Emily is mine, Pacer is my partners. But we love both of them...
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Poem - Thrown Away
I cannot stand being in this place
Where to people I'm just a face
That there is no life at all in me
I am the soul that no one can see
I just drag around and pushed down
I cant stand my ground or make sounds
No one can hear me or wants to
I am the person that people only screw
If you see me well thats quite not true
I am someone that you can see through
I have no right to thoughts and no right to speak
All of my pain continues on me as streaks
My scars show who I am today
I am the person who gets thrown away
Everything I sacrifice and everything I give
But no one around me cares me to live.
Where to people I'm just a face
That there is no life at all in me
I am the soul that no one can see
I just drag around and pushed down
I cant stand my ground or make sounds
No one can hear me or wants to
I am the person that people only screw
If you see me well thats quite not true
I am someone that you can see through
I have no right to thoughts and no right to speak
All of my pain continues on me as streaks
My scars show who I am today
I am the person who gets thrown away
Everything I sacrifice and everything I give
But no one around me cares me to live.
Poem - Me!
People don't know what I'm going through,
They don't know what it is like to be me.
They don't see how much I'm in pain,
Their eyes are blinded, they cannot see.
These scars i have are permanent,
These cuts wont fade.
This hole in my heart is so deep,
I wish they wouldn't stay.
No one understands,
Why i act like i do.
Its who i am,
Its me being true.
They don't know what it is like to be me.
They don't see how much I'm in pain,
Their eyes are blinded, they cannot see.
These scars i have are permanent,
These cuts wont fade.
This hole in my heart is so deep,
I wish they wouldn't stay.
No one understands,
Why i act like i do.
Its who i am,
Its me being true.
Poem - Just tell me why?
You say it'll all be okay but how?
You say this pain will fade but when?
You will always remember what happen & how & when
But i wish i would forget
Because if i forget
I wont cry every night
Wanna hurt myself for something i didn't stop
All i do at night is think of what went wrong
I feel like I'm a burden to my family
And the few people who i trusted with my life
Vanished in a split sec.
If gods not trying to punish me
When why does he want me to suffer?
I didn't think i was a bad person
But i guess i was wrong
Just tell me why?
You say this pain will fade but when?
You will always remember what happen & how & when
But i wish i would forget
Because if i forget
I wont cry every night
Wanna hurt myself for something i didn't stop
All i do at night is think of what went wrong
I feel like I'm a burden to my family
And the few people who i trusted with my life
Vanished in a split sec.
If gods not trying to punish me
When why does he want me to suffer?
I didn't think i was a bad person
But i guess i was wrong
Just tell me why?
Poem - Sleeping Away Pain
Northing's perfect in this world,
so why should I wait for things to go back to normal?
Somethings always going to go wrong.
When there's not a thing you can do about it.
I'm going to be strong,
because this is all life.
I'm not making the stress go away,
not with a knife.
I'm done cutting,
it doesn't help lately.
The pains to much to handle.
But I'm going to sleep it away.
I'm greatly hurt and no one cares.
So I don't understand why I should be alive.
I am though, so I'm just going to start living life.
so why should I wait for things to go back to normal?
Somethings always going to go wrong.
When there's not a thing you can do about it.
I'm going to be strong,
because this is all life.
I'm not making the stress go away,
not with a knife.
I'm done cutting,
it doesn't help lately.
The pains to much to handle.
But I'm going to sleep it away.
I'm greatly hurt and no one cares.
So I don't understand why I should be alive.
I am though, so I'm just going to start living life.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Poem - If Not For You
If not for you, I wouldn't know
What true love really meant.
I'd never feel this inner peace;
I couldn't be content.
If not for you, I'd never have
The pleasures of romance.
I'd miss the bliss, the craziness,
Of loves sweet, silly dance.
I have to feel your tender touch;
I have to hear your voice;
No other one could take your place;
You're it; I have no choice.
If not for you, I'd be adrift;
I don't know what I'd do;
I'd be searching for my other half,
Incomplete, if not for you.
What true love really meant.
I'd never feel this inner peace;
I couldn't be content.
If not for you, I'd never have
The pleasures of romance.
I'd miss the bliss, the craziness,
Of loves sweet, silly dance.
I have to feel your tender touch;
I have to hear your voice;
No other one could take your place;
You're it; I have no choice.
If not for you, I'd be adrift;
I don't know what I'd do;
I'd be searching for my other half,
Incomplete, if not for you.
Poem - I'm Sorry
I'm sorry for being so nice,
I'm sorry for being so broken.
I'm sorry for not trusting you and holding on to you.
I'm sorry for pushing you away,
when you held me in your arms.
I know I'm worthless, and you shouldn't be loving me
I feel rueful, and every time we argue
it turns into a gloomy day.
I'm sorry for leaving you for that dirty boy,
I felt bad it was my nice side.
You're not a decoy,
leading me into danger.
You're not going to break my heart.
I'm sorry for directing you into being broken,
and leading you into a trap.
When I had you I dropped it.
I didn't mean to, it just happened.
But now I love you, so what else can I say?
Other than I'll never leave you again.
It's Always & Forever Baby.
I'm sorry for being so broken.
I'm sorry for not trusting you and holding on to you.
I'm sorry for pushing you away,
when you held me in your arms.
I know I'm worthless, and you shouldn't be loving me
I feel rueful, and every time we argue
it turns into a gloomy day.
I'm sorry for leaving you for that dirty boy,
I felt bad it was my nice side.
You're not a decoy,
leading me into danger.
You're not going to break my heart.
I'm sorry for directing you into being broken,
and leading you into a trap.
When I had you I dropped it.
I didn't mean to, it just happened.
But now I love you, so what else can I say?
Other than I'll never leave you again.
It's Always & Forever Baby.
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