Saturday, October 5, 2013

OctPoWriMo - Day Four

Best Way To Go


Flesh and hair yield no interest in me these days.
Limbs and lips are just accessories to the soul.

No one carries a drop of my blood in their heart,
So why carry on living in an empty vessel,
An empty sack of bones and non functional organs?

Instead, I wish I were a small secluded flower
Up on a hill with fresh air and vanilla spring water.

Dying as a person demands attention and harsh fluorescent lights.
A stench of biohazard trash and wasted moments besiege a white, sterilized room.

But wilting and withering away like a flower does
Must be the most peaceful way to go...

Surrounded by life as the sun sets and a light scent 
Of blooming roses and imminent rain lovingly intoxicate 
Delicate and decaying parts of me,
A simple form of life on earth...

To lie so still cushioned by a quilt of grass,
While the sun warms me up,
And it's dark counterpart cools me down
Day after day, 
Until I've withered thoroughly 
And have at last joined the the souls of nature deceased.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

OctPoWriMo - Day Three


Depression Takes It's Toll


Behind these eyes, I cry the tears I've never shed
In my heart, I feel the pain I have known to dread
I am fractured, shattered
And for once a smile can't smother the hurt
It'll only make it worse

I was prepared for what would happen
I kept repeating that if would be tragic
My heart is cracked open, broken
I could feel his heart begin to rest
And I understand that it's for the best

I hate this
The tears keep tumblind down
And I can't fake it, I can't fake it
I am fractured, shattered
And for once a smile can't mask the hurt
It'll only make everything worse

This is the first time I've ever had to feel
It hurts to have something to reveal
I hate looking a mess
From the burning in my chest
Because the tears are finally real

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

OctPoWriMo - Day Two

Refusal to Acceptance



I am in denial.
I sometimes hope.
I sometimes wish.
So much that..
I sometimes believe..
That you need me as much as I do you.
That you want to talk as much as I want to talk to you
That you think of me as much as I think of you.
But,
I am in denial. 
Because I know that isn't so.
I need you, and you can go on without me.
I want to talk to you all day long but you can occupy yourself without me.
And I think of you all day long and I'm you hardly think of me.
I know I'm in denial. 
But acceptance is what I need to achieve. 
I'm having a hard time getting there.
I think id rather believe what I want.. 
It makes me happy.. I smile..
In the moment..
For the moment..
But that can only be followed by pain and disappointment.
I thank you though
For being the false happiness in my beautiful imaginary world. 

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

OctPoWritMo - Number One



As Time Passed By


Two weeks have passed
I still await the day when everything
Shall become the way I have dreamt

But all wishes become shattered
As I encounter the same loneliness 
That has been my companion through time

In occasions when sadness surrounds me, 
Deciding to remind myself of happier times 
Seems useless to the mind,

And every bit of passion in me,
Desires your presence again
Forgetting all the pain it causes the heart.

Could this be the final chapter?
A moment in history where it all ends,
Or could it be a renewal of my life itself?

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

16 Personality Factors


Way too little
Less
More
Way too much
WARMTH
anti-socialreservedwarmintrusive
unkindimpersonaloutgoingsmothering
colddistantattentive to othersnosy
uninvolvedcoolkindly
detachedeasy going
formalparticipating
alooflikes people
self-centeredsociable
ungenerousfriendly
socially inhibitedcompassionate
helpful
nurturing
EMOTIONAL STABILITY
obsessiveemotionally reactiveemotionally stableunresponsive
frenziedchangeable moodsadaptive
hystericalaffected by feelingsmature
fickleemotionally less stablefaces reality
histrionic (dramatic)easily upsetcalm
excitableunsentimental
high strungimpartial
DOMINANCE
dronedeferentialdominantdomineering
passivecooperativeforcefuldictatorial
avoids conflictassertiveantagonistic
submissiveaggressivevindictive
humblecompetitivevengeful
obedientstubbornunforgiving
easily ledbossyhostile
docilewillful
accommodating
subdued
compliant
agreeableness
LIVELINESS
humorlessseriouslivelywhirlwind
apatheticrestrainedanimatedundependable
prudentspontaneousextravagant
taciturnenthusiastic
introspectivehappy go lucky
silentcheerful
dourexpressive
energetic
passionate
indulgent
RULE CONSCIOUSNESS
anarchistexpedientrule-consciousrule bound
nihilistnonconformingdutifulmoralistic
lawlessdisregards rulesconscientiousjudgmental
dishonestself indulgentconformingcritical
manipulativedisobedientstaid
unrestrainedself-controlled
impulsivedependable
responsible
SOCIAL BOLDNESS
agoraphobicshysocially boldblind to social cues
reclusivethreat-sensitiveventuresomeattention seeker
inhibitedtimidthick skinnedself-aggrandizement
hesitantuninhibited
easily intimidatedcan take stress
SENSITIVITY
insensitiveutilitariansensitivemanic
objectiveaesthetic
unsentimentalsentimental
tough mindedtender minded (tender hearted)
self-reliantintuitive
no-nonsenserefined
roughempathetic
resolutereceptive
determinedhistrionic
open-minded
VIGILANCE
naivetrustingvigilantcynical
gullibleunsuspectingsuspiciousprejudiced
acceptingskepticalbiased
unconditionaldistrustful
easyoppositional
uncooperative
ABSTRACTEDNESS
unimaginativegroundedabstractedout of touch with reality
practicalimaginative
prosaicabsent minded
solution orientedimpractical
steadyabsorbed in ideas
straightforwardidealistic
PRIVATENESS
blabbermouthforthrightprivatesecretive
gossipindiscreetdiscreet
artlessnon-disclosing
openshrewd
guilelesspolished
unpretentiousworldly
involvedastute
genuinediplomatic
APPREHENSION
arrogantself-assuredapprehensivefear-bound

unworriedself doubting
complacentworrying
secureguilt prone
free of guiltinsecure
confidentself blaming
self satisfiednervous
self confident
OPENNESS TO CHANGE
fear of the unknowntraditionalopen to changesensation seeker
close mindedattached to familiarexperimentingnovelty seeker
dogmaticconservativeliberal
respecting traditional ideasanalytical
consistentcritical (evaluating not censorious)
cautiousfree thinking
conventionalflexible
pessimisticoptimistic
predictableinventive
seeker of answersasker of questions
unpredictable
surprising
curious
self-transcendent (seeing self as an integral part of the universe)
adventurous
SELF-RELIANCE
leechgroup-orientedself-reliantloner
self-sacrificingaffiliativesolitaryrude
people pleasinga joiner and followerresourcefulselfish
narcissisticdependentindividualisticgreedy
extrovert (gets recharged being with others)self sufficienttightfisted
accommodatingintrovert (needs alone time to recharge)
selflessindependent
generousself-interested
self-monitoringself-focused
other-focused
altruistic
humble (modest)
considerate
tolerant
PERFECTIONISM
oblivioustolerates disorderperfectionistobsessive
chaoticunexactingorganizedhoarder
flexiblecompulsiveworkaholic
undisciplinedself-disciplinedhyper-focused on flaws
laxsocially precise
self-conflictexacting will power
careless of social rulescontrolled
uncontrolledself-sentimental
seeker of 'good enough'careful
focused on what's rightdeliberation
persistence
simplicity
thorough
seeker of 'the best'
goal oriented
success oriented
efficient
focused on what's wrong
TENSION
torpidrelaxedtenseoverwrought
listlessplacidhigh energy
indolenttranquilimpatient
patientdriven
composedfrustrated
low drivehigh drive
easy goingtime driven
low anxietyhigh anxiety
relaxedtense
imperturbableperturbable
well-adjusted
REASONING
concrete thinkingabstract-thinking
lower general mental capacitymore intelligent
less intelligentbright
higher general mental capacity
fast learner


I made some changes to Cattell's list. I suspect some words have shifted meanings since Cattell listed them, such as, critical meant evaluating but is now commonly used to mean condemning. So, I added a few words (to the bottoms of lists), removed a couple, and moved one. I listed his "5 Global Factors" under the categories where they seemed to best fit with the 16. (They're global because Cattell felt they fit several categories.)

The "way too" words in the columns to left and right I added. These aren't traits people are born with. Environment or life events warped the person in these directions. These are also where characters have the potential for the most (story) growth.

HISTORY: Back in the 1930s Gordon Allport collected 17,953 personality words -- by scanning through the dictionary! He whittled them down to 4505. Cattell whittled them further to 171 then categorized them.

10 Things To Consider When Naming Characters

1. What does the name mean?
2. What were his parents’ names?
3. Where are his grandparents from?
4. Were his parents wealthy or poor?
5. Where was he born?
6. What is his birthday?

Google the date to ensure you haven’t given him a ‘famous’ or ‘infamous’ birthday.
Google the year to find out the 20 most popular names that year.
What film was No. 1 in the year that he was born?
What song was No. 1 in the year that he was born?
What TV series was the most popular?
7. What are his siblings’ names?
8. What versions of his name will people use?

Example: Amanda, Mandy, Mands
9. When you say the name out loud - first and last name – how does it sound?
10. Are the initials inadvertently funny?

Example: Patty Clark will always be PC
Three Ways to help you choose a name

Does the meaning suit your character’s role?
Is it believable for the time he was born?
Does it suit his ancestry?
The Others

Make a list of your characters’ names.

Do they all begin with the same, or a similar sounding, letter of the alphabet? If they do, change them.
Do they have a different number of syllables? If they don’t, change them.

Cliches

These are 12 of the most annoying clichés in writing. Clichés alienate your audience. Avoid them if you can. 

1. Avoid it like the plague
2. Dead as a door nail
3. Take the tiger by the tail
4. Low hanging fruit
5. If only walls could talk
6. The pot calling the kettle black
7. Think outside the box
8. Thick as thieves
9. But at the end of the day
10. Plenty of fish in the sea
11. Every dog has its day
12. Like a kid in a candy store

Which cliché annoys you more than these?