Hitting 5,000 words

I have been getting the inspiration on writing o my current story. A Gift you Don't Have to Earn. I'm hitting the five thousand mark tonight. I am finding this story is flowing like water right now. I haven't written much today, but the last thirty minutes I've hit the five thousand mark, which I think is cool and great milestone. I guess I finally got inspired to get some words down. Even if I have only written about three hundred words, it something which is good.

Update - A Gift You Don't Have to Earn

I have tried three time to rewrite this story. I have found that I have been forgetting to do two major things when I write. I should first read a scripture and pray about the scripture and my writing. I found 3rd time around is working well. I have done my prologue and now onto Chapter One. I knew this story is going to be hard to write, but it going to be a wonderful story to write. I love writing, and when I can't write I am depressed and at rock bottom for some unknown reason.

I wrote 1500 words yesterday, today I hoping on writing that same amount or close to it. I feel so alive and free from any worries when I write. I let my mind do the writing, but my hands do the typing. My partner is my muse. When they are working we email each other on their breaks at work. When they're home they inspire me to write at my best. Plus on Thursday our friend visits, which is awesome. I love J.K. and they are very insightful and good to run off things I'm thinking about writing about and I get some good vibes from him.

Poem - The Real Me

I don't even know
Where I should start
You've affected my life
And more importantly my heart

You brought something out
That I didn't know was there
Because no one took the time
To tell me they care

I saw a side of myself
That I thought had been dead
Yet you awakened my soul
With everything you have said

You're different from everyone
And you understand me
You broke down my walls
And the real me, you see

Poem - Brother

Walking thought the halls of this world alone,
searching for the thing unknown,
looking for the one to help me thought,
this world i thought was true,
and then i found some one to share,
this new world with,
without a care,
your there for me when no one else was,
you showed me what a true friend was,
your there for me with all this crap,
my life has to hold from the past,
you hold me high when all i do is fall,
for this i will call,
my brother, 
my friend,
i will love you till the end,
Thanks for being there my true friend.

Poem - The Love That Grew Out Of Friendship

About 6 years ago, 
On Valentine's Day...
I handed someone a card,
That was the only thing I gave.

And about 8 months ago,
He pulled it out again,
He showed it to me
And my heart began to sing

The card I gave him,
Said "I'll croak if you won't be mine."
Now if you stop and think about this
Then love must really be divine!

His name may be old,
Yet our love is forever new
His name is Troy Rockwell
And soon, that will be me too!

Update - Change of Heart

Today has been a rather productive day for me. I got some work done on my story. Even though word was playing up and kept shutting down on me, I still got some good writing done. This story is a story I'm writing with parts of my own life into my story. I'm a gay male, but with a difference. Anyhow, I love writing this story. It is helping me get some feelings and thoughts out of my life to write a story.

Leave - Poem

Screams echo
words cut deep
i hide the bruises
i fake a smile
i push the tears back
nothing can cover the truth
lies to everyone
lies to hide
rage depression fills life
my family is hurt
my fault only my fault
my heart is black
wrists stained red
will never forgive
for the words they said
leave it all behind
leave it all in pieces
just leave